life..life...LIFE...haiz...life has been boring this past weeks...so boring...lambat pulak surat NS sampai...haiz...cepat lah datang lebih rela aku duduk dalam sana..dari kat luar ni...keje pun tak seberapa...teruk jugak IKEA ni....kasi keje macam gini..schedule macam apa...1 week 3 hari keje..kau..pathetic sey...mcdonald pun at least hari2 dapat keje...pikir aku pergi holiday per 4 hari off...duduk rumah macam budak gila..keluar jadi macam anak hantu..baguslar tu...bila nak bertemu kekasih lama ehk...nari dia takde..pergi chalet..haiz..boringnye aku.ingat nak fetch her from work...then..she's going for chalet..hrm.maybe next time..hehehe semalam pegi apa tu..sheesha ke,cishar ke,cigar or cigarette..arrgghh wateva lar...okay lar not bad..have fun with friends..tapi not so happening,coz not full attendance lar yesterday..but overall...wonderful lar.haha ingat nak ajak yana pegi tgk movie cerita The Reaping nari...hrm..tak kesampaian keke..and so,as for me,life still goes on like normal..maybe not going so smoothly..but still i tried forcing myself to go through this smoothly...i feel so broken up...and i give up...i just wanna tell you so you know..haiz...as days past...here i go,scream my lungs out and try to get to you...you are my only one...i let go,there's just no one who gets me like you do..you are my only,my only one.......i've decided to be happy,no matter how harsh the world is...
and i'm gonna stay optimistic,coz there's no use getting upset..
it won't get me nowhere...i've lost everything...i've lost all hopes...
i've lost those promises...and finally i've lost you...i'm just a failure
and right now...every second,minute,hours,days and weeks of my life...
i'm still here..right here....hating every single piece of my life now which i have left....
P.S:do you dream of me at night?
Wednesday, April 11, 2007